The other day, I was feeling really crappy, like getting sick or something, and I could literally feel the metal bits and screws around my nose. Not Kidding. I felt weirdly swollen/wonky/pain and so I touched the area that felt weird/slightly painful, and it was where the metal pieces were. They felt like they were lifting off my skull. NOT a pretty image in my over-active brain. But they're better now.
I got the metal plate and screws in my lower left jaw removed in late June 2009, but I still notice uneven swelling in that area. Esp. if the weather is bad or if I've been working too much and not sleeping enough or have lots to stress about (which law school ISN'T helping with).
But I really wanted to post a new blog (I know, it's been a year, or over a year) is b/c I wanted to start a list of things I want:
-Chemex (8-cup, which is about 40 oz, capacity, w/ the classic wooden collar)
& a box of unbleached Chemex filters (square or round, doesn't matter)
-E-Reader...I sorta want a Kindle, but the Nook also looks okay, and Sony or any other well-known brand would do as well. I haven't really read too many reviews, but I really liked the Kindle I read from, which a friend's dad left for her when he visited a few months ago. I don't know if she has to give it back during Christmas break.
-maybe a new pair of tall black boots. I have the old ones I've had for years, and they're still nice and sufficient, so I don't technically need new boots. It would be nice, is all.
-and maybe a new cashmere cardigan in a fun color. (I have a grey turtle neck, orange turtle neck--which might be a bit too loose on me now, and a fun claret-red cowl neck--which I LOVE). No need for new coats, but a pair of jeans, and maybe a pair of corduroys are needed. My clothes are growing or I'm shrinking. It's annoying but I need new pants that fit better. The clothes-makers are doing something funky w/ their sizes, I know it. I used to be a 4, or 4p. Now 2's are too loose on me, and some 0's have waists that are too big on me. This is ridiculous. I am not that tiny! I weigh more than my lowest weight after surgery, tho I've lost a bit of weight in the past few months. It's not an unhealthy weight for my height and frame. My teeny tiny friends have to resort to 0p's and -0's and 00's.
-most definitely a sweater dress appropriate for work, maybe something that's not grey or black...any other subdued and elegant color will do, about knee-length.
-possibly, a new computer in like 3-5 months. I think I want to take the bar on a new computer, if IL (or whichever state I get a job in, fingers crossed!!!!) switches to typed exams. Or, I can just get used to hand-writing lots of things, or go back to hand-writing essays exams.
-A JOB would be nice too. I mean, I should apply to jobs, but I don't know...I don't know...the economy is sooooo discouraging and my grades are just so horrid.
I might want to go back to grad school to see if I can regain confidence in my mental capacities and academic prowess. I never thought I was intellectually deficient or was a bad writer until I came to law school. I do fairly well at internships when I submit written work, but ugh...this antiquated school/teaching model has got to go. I hate the socratic method, never got used to it, and I just shy away from classes and situations where I'll be forced to speak. I think law schools should be taught on a tutelage system. It would foster better relations with professors and students that click and allow for independent learning styles and encourage students to take more responsibility/control over their legal education. So that they can focus on things they really want to, and know that the knowledge is theirs by choice, not b/c they were scared of being called on...esp. b/c the fear actually prevents ppl from learning. TRUTH. Told to me by many a fellow law student.
Okay, that's it. I need to write a 15-pg paper, due tomorrow. YIKES! And deal w/ my tummy troubles and the moon cycle and my reverse-cycling problem (sleeping btwn 5 am and 3 pm, and staying awake when it's dark out). And have 2 more papers due w/in 4 days after this one is turned in....help!
I hope to go for a check-up w/ my surgeon when I'm back in Chicago for Christmas break...and I'm coming back to the Atl the 2nd day of classes b/c dagnabbit, it's my last semester and I get to miss a couple days in the beginning of the semester!!! I never really settle down or learn anything in those first few days anyways.
